Cakes work and counselling

hello Darling

It is a wet morning here in Liverpool I am enjoying the rain and hope it clears the air , it has been hot and clammy this week, not good for me .
I had a lovely trip to Dobbies with Rachel yesterday and bought some heathers , drank tea and had cheese scones in memory of dad.
I had a drink with Tony on Sunday evening , he is doing ok still adjusting to Andrea being away in Canada. I had tea  with Philip on Tuesday , he still seems fragile but doing well , still golfing, reading , listening to the proms in Radio 3 and going off to Israel soon to clear the flat they rented in Israel of their things. sad things to do especially in his own, yet maybe it will be easier not having to keep his chin up for other folk.

Johnny is  off in OZ in Midsummers night Dream , Martha has chicken pox 😱 Archie has gone back to school Ellie work, so a busy time for them all.

I have made cakes for the kindness challenge this week . I was asked to do something nice for my parents, but as they are gone now I asked on Streetlife if there was an elderly person I could bake a cake for and two folk came back to me , one person visits an old folks home and is taking a cake there and another woman told me her husband will be 91 tomorrow , I bakes him a cake too they are being collected today . nice to be part of the challenge give me a lot of pleasure !

I am doing some  counselling  today , and I am seeing Marie my own counsellor .

I feel tired quite a lot right now not sure if it is the weather my age or something else .

I have been worrying about Philip , things are not great in his relationship , but they are better at work and he does like his duplex and hi is taking charge of his finances.

I think about all five children partners and grand children a lot and each one has things going on in their lives , right now I think they are all coping well and mostly rising above to challenges and able to enjoy their lives. Inshallah

I am close to Sandra and Jackie and stalk Matthew and Gary but they do respond to me in time .

I am very grateful for my sisters they are a hugely important part of my life 👯

I think of you and talk to you at our tree I write to you here and I talk to a little picture I have of you on a coaster .

I love and miss you darling John . TT

Dreich morning in Liverpool!

hello darling


Missing you a lot right now, we always loved September 1st the beginning of our month our season, but now I feel sad the joy has gone out of birthdays anniversaries and even Christmas.Life is just so lonely without you, lonely even when I am with folk, you are always missing .

I miss Andrew and Lucy, just them being along the road, somehow it is comforting knowing they are there even if I don't see them. They are having a great holiday and I am  glad for them they work so hard and this is well deserved.

Philip is settling back into life in Beijing, still struggling financially , hope that changes at some point, I worry about it and that ends up costing me money I can't really afford.

I will be talking to Penny and Johnny this weekend, inshallah. Johnny and Ellie's wedding anniversary tomorrow, I have sent them a card and Archies birthday gift, and Blackpool rock too.

I sent Penny's children Blackpool rock and it arrived on the day they went back to school,so it was a nice treat for them when they got home.


I was not going to Listen to September Morn, decided not to torture myself, then Wendy Collins, suggested we listen together on September 2nd, I said yes, at noon, so we did and thought about you ,

It was nice knowing she was listening too.


I will be sending out dates of Artist's Way courses today, starting in October , eight weeks before Christmas possibly two nights a week.....I enjoy the groups , great woman, and the money will help replenish the coffers.

I will contact the Scottish dancing group again soon, I think that will be good for me , hoping for some fun and renewing an old interest too.

I have three more little short story/memories to write for the children ( grand) about you.


I had a big shopping delivered yesterday, I have new shelves in the kitchen which look nice, I put the wine on the shelves, but did not like it there,so I went into John Lewis and bought a wine rack, which look nice, and a picnic basket to keep the crisps nuts and chocolate in. All change here darling, I wonder if you would recognise the place if you arrived back, which I wish you would.

I was supposed to be meeting Tony for a drink tonight but he is just back from a walking holiday with Nick,and he is shattered, so we will meet tonight. I might go to the cinema as it s a wet grey day.


I wonder if you are somewhere in the universe having your adventure , I wish I was with you,

Much love always darling John ....TT xx