Darling John
I don't blog very much now.
I talk to you at the tree at Sefton Park,in my head, at bedtime, and about you as often as possible.
I miss you ,naturally enough, but especially as we come up to our 30th wedding anniversary. The memories come flooding back about that lovely day and out happy life together.
Patsy and Kev ,Liz and Phil are coming over on the 31st to raise a glass to us.
That will be that last public thing I do to remember you my darling.I will always remember you as will the children.
I have seen a lot of the children this year, David and Lara and Olivia in Hong Kong and in Cambridge, Johnny and Ellie Archie and Martha many time in London and Cambridge, and Penny Steve Kate Johnny Felix and Harry the same many times all in Cambridge for them.
I see lots of Andrew and Lucy, thankfully, they are happily settled into life in their new home in Woolton. A place I came to know very well, when you were there twice for many months.
I rather like it now, I still have a wee pang for you when I am there.
Philip is now in Taiwan, he is enjoying it and at the same time reality is creeping in and he can see the cracks at the school now.
I miss him and would love to visit with him next year, possible with David and Lara and Olivia too.
That would be something. I have not been sleeping too well and feeling a little under par, I am pretty sure it is connected with the upcoming wedding anniversary.It brings up so many feeling of loss and conversely happy memories and feelings.
I carry on seeing my clients and Artist's Way groups, I know and hear my work makes a difference and I like that.
I see friends and family .I am learning the piano thanks to Andrew giving me some money from his shares :-) I bought a keyboard ;with the help of Tony , he is my piano teacher-he is very good.
I have joined the Liverpool Community Choir and I am back learning Spanish on a Saturday afternoon.
I am enjoying all those things, settling into the new ones gradually, I am wondering if this is to be my life now, is there something else I have to do what is my destiny now that you have gone, I believe we were destined to be together my love. Thank god we met.
I love you I miss you TT Helen xxx
