Sun is shining !

Yesterday I went to Beth for  my treatment, she  used some new tools and although I felt quite nauseous yesterday and slept for about 18 hours I feel much better today.

My foot feels much better which is good because I have missed walking in the park. and my arms are a bit better too, I miss knitting and writing and all the things which are good for me and manage my stress levels.

Feeling better and the sunshine lifts my spirits, and thankfully I will be able to go to Everyman tonight to see Twelfth Night, yesterday I was not sure this would be possible.

I still have huge responsibility for everything and sometimes I feel it on my shoulders.

I think all five of us take on a lot of responsibility, maybe the Collins gene..

John is at the hospital today to see the oncologist. I hope he will ask about us going to Spain, I really would love to have the flights booked.

Maureen is really ill the last few days, Penny feels sure this is the truth this time, she and Johnny take day about being with her and Mike, they are great kids.

I don't know how they do it with all they have to do with their own families, very good partners of course.

I think waiting for Maureen's death is making it hard to make other plans it seems so heartless.

Although Johnny and Penny still ask us to plan the next visit.

  I hope Philip will get back to me with dates for our weekend away soon, then I can make plans for John's travel, then I can join him as I did last time. Matthew and Marie are keen for us to visit too, prepared to move beds downstairs for John, so kind as John would like to go there.
I miss my family, siblings and partners, and their children, now we have Lachlan Matthew, really looking forward to meeting with him, wee soul.

Phil has painted the stove and got the cot out and cleaned it. I am very grateful to him.

Philip's things have arrived in Castlenel which is good news.

This means that we can trust the driver, and can now get the bed and the screen over too.



 I had to cancel work yesterday, have not done that for years and years, but needs must.

I want to have the energy for Last Saturday Event ,this Saturday. I have six people and am really looking forward to seeing them all and  encouraging their creative ideas and plans.

It was Anita and Philip's golden wedding on march 25th ,congratulations to them, it would have been Susan and Gavin's on March 10th.

It is Anne and Henry's in Early April. I think it is fantastic that they have stayed together through all of life trials and tribulations.
 Not an easy thing to do.
Of all life's challenges I think , as does Adler, the" relationship "is the hardest to sustain.
Work and Friends and Purpose etc are challenges but seemingly a bit less demanding, a bit of a generalisation of course.I am sure that in some cases the relationship is what allows us to face the challenges in the other areas. it has been for John and I thankfully.

All shall be well
and all shall be well,
and all manner of things shall be well.


And so it is!