February 7

Hello darling John

I was visiting you at your tree the other day, it is very wintery in the park yet thee is a wee hint of spring too.

I have been to Scotland for Peggy's funeral, a sad occasion, she was only six months older than me. My only "big" cousin.It was really special to see Walter again and Frances and Susan , and Peggy's boys and their families.

I stayed with Sandra and harry and that was really nice, we ate nice food and after the funeral went to my favourite pub in Balloch and drank nice wine and remembered.


I felt very tired after that, came home worked for the next two days, the collapsed over the weekend, which did me the world of good. Lots of rest and sleep and walks and movies.

I am going to see pride and prejudice tonight at The Playhouse with Tony, he then heads off to Singapore and will not be back before I leave, so this will be the last meet up till May, when he is going to teach me to play the piano

I am adjusting to my new life now, I miss you I always will ,yet I am carving out a life for myself without your presence..although I feel you are around, I talk to you picture, I think about you all the time, and it is comforting, to know, I was and am loved so unconditionally by you.what a great gift you gave me darling John.I hope I think you know that I loved you that much and still do, too.

Not long before I am off on my travels to Hong Kong ,Beijing and Australia.I am looking forward to it all enormously and if feels good to feel that way, For so long after you died, I just could not be bothered.

I bought my first daffodils of the year and remembered that you always bought them for me...
"you don't bring me flowers anymore" goes around in my head, in fact, you can't bring me flowers anymore, but I buy them on your behalf. It gives me joy.


H, TT, XX