End of August

hello my darling husband,

I have just been to the tree where your ashes are scattered,I go often , also to dad's tree, I find it comforting.

I miss you , of course, and all my family. This is a bank holiday weekend, the children are all in China, apart from Johnny and Ellie , they just back from France, Penny and Steve moved into their new home in Cambridge. I will go soon, just difficult to find a date that suits all of us.

Andrea is away in Canada now, she has found her dream job. My circle of friends and family is getting smaller and smaller.


I am planning some theatre and concert visits now Autumn is almost here- I have spend a lot of extra money while Philip was home and loaned him a lot of money too,so I am having to be careful about money.I have booked my flight to Castalla for Christmas, Andrew and Lucy suggested that we go again the year, I said yes, so I have booked cause the cheap flights are out now, A&L are in China, so I hope this trip is still on.

I am still a little lethargic about these things, but I think the August weather has not helped, August is often a bit too hot and humid, it does not agree with me,cause of my thyroid condition.

I am hoping Sepember 1st will give me it usual boost, it is our month, I miss miss out dance around the room, to September Morn, Autumn Leaves, and Vivaldi's Autumn.And I will miss you my lovely man.

The news does not get any better since you left,the world is quite mad at times, yet I know there are still many more wonderful people on this planet than disturbed crazy people,we just don't here enough about them.

I am taking part  in the kindness challenge which last 365 days ,I get an email every week telling what I could do and I happily do it, and many folk are taking part and I take that a a good sign.

I feel thankful to hear all the things other people do!


I love and miss you, sorry not to be writing so much, the last time I did  it ,I got very low and deep into my grief,and I don't want fall that far again, well not for a while,I do want to honour you my darling,and do my grief work, is is so painful as you know.....you are worth it ,of course.

TT xx