Yesterday we had a very emotional day .
John was moved to a room on his own a few days ago-and the staff said maybe Johnny and Penny should come yesterday instead of to-day. They did come and it was very special - John rallied a bit and said some things he felt he needed to say -including that he knew the end was near- that although he was in favour of life -he accepted the inevitable ( paraphrasing) he said much more -it feels to personal for the blog- because some of it was to Penny and Johnny and not for me to share. But as you would imagine- it was great stuff with the inevitable humour there too,
John is very special . I don't say this because of how I feel about him- the reaction of so many folk highlights this to me. Family ,friends ,but also the staff at Marie Curie and the other hospitals that he has been in. He is much loved and admired by those who have only known him in his illness.
Penny left yesterday aware that it might be the last time she saw her beloved dad.So so sad.
Johnny went back to London but decided that is would come back today. It was so emotional- Andrew and Lucy came to visit John and to take me home- John rallied a bit for them which was special.
I came home last night- had a bath and was asleep just after 9,00 PM what a day.
Today Johnny and I met at the hospice- John was very different- slept most of the day mostly peaceful- thank god. Johnny brought a mini tree two mini cava's and three mini malts -some mince pies-and our Christmas gifts,What a lad.Andrew came in while Johnny was there and they shared a miniature malt together and raised a glass to John - so many special moments- Lucy called in too and Liz...all special- how often can you say that without it losing its meaning? I do not know- but in truth we have had so many special moments.
I left John is wonderful hands ,the staff who are like family to us now- they will call me if any thing changes- all being well I will have a good nights sleep.
Thank god for John and 27 years of marriage- I am truly grateful for every day- even the tough ones.
I was home in time for the final of Masterchef- Jamie my guy from the start- won - a happy moment- in a sad time. Robert sent a long email- saying "have a glass of wine" which I duly did with masterchef- then he sent a picture of Gwynneth with her tree- she does not change.
All shall be well
and all shall be well
and all manner of things shall be well.......
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