St Steven's Day 2014

Hello blog

we got through Christmas eve and Christmas day it has been so hard- so emotional-so beautiful- heartbreaking and life enhancing.

John sleeps mostly with an occasional wakeful moment- sometimes totally with us sometimes in another place trying to communicate from his place to our place.

This week Johnny and Penny spent time with John came all the way from Cambridge and London.

John came twice and on his last day before Christmas he brought a tiny tree- mini champagne- mini malt whiskies mince pies and gifts for both of us. Pyjamas for John a beautiful shawl for me.

Liz called in that day and we had some reminiscing some songs some laughter ad tears.

John and I played A fond kiss to John and we both cried- Johnny did not know that this Robert Burns song was James Lightbody's favourite song and John always thinks of him when he hear it- as it happens Johnny thinks of his dad when he hear it too- so it was very emotional.. for me too as I chose it as one of my desert island discs-for my Scottish family- my grandfather loved it. All those connections to on song.

One Christmas eve an old friend, Liz, and I decorated this tree with tiny baubles - I brought in the radio and we played Classic FM which was mostly Christmas songs.

I felt sad leaving John on Christmas eve...it is a sad time with out the one you love with you- I had a bath and an early night- but did not sleep too well.

Christmas morning was strange too..I opened a few gifts and a cab came for me at 11 AM -- John was asleep but I was happy to be with his for the few hours before my sons and Lucy and my son's dad came to visit with John- John stirred a little but was a bit confused- but did like on gift- a coaster with a picture of his Lightbody clock face on it- one of a set of coaster from Philip- he went back to sleep holding it,

We left John and came back here for a few hours and exchanged gifts and drank tea ( me and Andrew who was driving) wine everyone else.

I was quite overwhelmed by the gifts that I received- from everyone- people were so so generous.

I have felt so loved and so supported by Andrew Philip and Lucy- they all love John too- we are blessed with our families. Penny Johnny and David and partners have been amazing too- been here as much as they possibly could be and been very loving to me.

I went back to Marie Curie and the boys and co went back to Manchester for a late Christmas dinner.

John slept and some friends Anita and Philip came for a little visit- which was lovely.

I came home about 8.00 Pm leaving John peaceful and asleep. I had a bath and some toast and smoked salmon-and some polish cake- my Christmas dinner--which I enjoyed.

Enjoyed looking at my gifts once more- so so lovely and thoughtful every one.


Then bed....I wakened up to-day -boxing day- quite refreshed and glad that those few days were done-we got through them-well done all of us- especially John.
John rang this morning to say he had made a mistake and that there are no trains running today so he will not be here until tomorrow- the forecast is for heavy snow- so taking the car is bot a good idea.I am glad he can spend some more time with his own family.

So dear blog that is it for now- lets see what to-day will bring us. Onwards and upwards.