Good Friday @ Everyman

Hi John
I'm am sitting in the Everyman - upstairs- smelling toast and coffee. It takes me back to the old Everyman cafe - the upstairs one where we often came for breakfast when we were not working - we had toasties which were toasted in the selephane wrap - which we thought was funny.
I have been sad - I finally managed to get to the bank and take your lovely familiar name off the bank accounts - I feel that I am betraying you - somehow- I know you would laugh at me and reassure me - but that is how I have been feeling - I am glad it is done I feel quite proud of myself , a few months ago I did not imagine that I could ever do it. They were very kind to me .
I have to do the same in Ireland but think it will all be done by post . I might ask Andrew to fill in the forms with me - it is less isolating having another human beings' presence when tackling tough things as I found out yesterday at the bank - Tracy even gave me a cup of tea- I don't think I have ever had a cup of tea in a bank ☕️🤗
I still have not received the winter fuel allowance - I have called them three times now- they assure me that it will come in time inshallah ! The hard thing is that as well as you not being here- I now have to do all the things that you did - you were good at patiently dealing with those types of calls and official form filling - I just don't like it- for some reason - I feel quite threatened by the questions - you often laughed at the stupidity of those official things- that comes from confidence - I can feel stupid - sometimes thinking it must be me - where as you thought it must be them- good on you John.
I miss you for many many reasons John- I miss our time together when we were younger and madly in love - I have had the picture that you painted in " calls de farafugel" framed- it is beautiful and picks up the romance of that time .

Love you .......always... TT xx