March has arrived and with it winds and snow sleet and rain, the flowers too are here the crocuses Daffodils, and my snowdrops that I bought last year at Ness Gardens came up again this year, made me smile to see them.
I hope so much that the fuchsia plants you bought for me will come again this year.
I went to Dobbies with Brain and Celia yesterday to buy an apple tree in your memory . with a voucher for Dobbies that Liz and Phil bought me.
The tree I want, I now know is called a family tree, will be in any day, it grows eating and cooking apples, I need a new pot too. all do -able within the budget which is lovely.
I was very happy and touched to receive in the post yesterday two lovely cards, one is for Nick and Sophie's wedding, the other a beautiful thank you from one of my new students,she said lovely things about me,and about our love, which amazed me, as she did not know you, and hardly knows me, yet picked up on that, and she says our love has inspired her.
I am so happy to be going to Sophie and Nicks wedding, I have grown very fond of both of them over the years.it will be nice to share in their day and also to share it with Andrew and Lucy too.
I am going to Julie and Raph's wedding too this year their's is in May, I sent some memories to Sandra , memories of Julie over the years including you and the story of the heart from Brussles market.
I will be emotional at the weddings, more at Sophie and Nick's as I will see them getting married, that is such a magic moment for a couple, and of course it brings back memories of our wedding and you hardly able to say the vows you were so emotional.
I went with Julie when she was trying on dresses and that was hard enough, cried at that too....what is that ? happiness for her, expressed in tears, memories of her being born, seeing her growing up, realizing time goes so fast. We had our time and it was amazing, challenging inspiring, hard, easy so varied, and now you are gone, but so close to me in my heart.
Johnny's birthday tomorrow, mother's day too, how will Johnny and Ellie manage that day? who will be the star for the day :-)
I have sent Johnny's gift. and it has arrived safely. I will call him tomorrow, his second birthday without you dear John.
I have set the wheels in motion so that Castlenel will be left in Andrew and Philip's hands when Phil and I die, hope to make it as simple for them.
I am not being morbid, just if it is all done then I can get on with my life, knowing all is well,
Today I am going to The Playhouse to see A Raisin in the Sun, a play made from a famous book, set in Chicago looking at racism and poverty experienced by three generations of one family.
I feel quite tired, I feel there is a bug in my system, not coming to anything but feeling a little below par...I could easily curl up in bed with my book, but no onwards and upwards.
I sent my cousins Mary and Hugh an email about my day in Ilkley in memory of their dad, my uncle Hughie, and some pictures, I have heard from both of them ,they love to hear how much I loved their parents and remember them.I understand that I love to hear folks talks about my folks, and you, it lifts my spirits.
You are very much around in my head and heart, Penny sent me a picture of the children all dressed up for world book day ready to set off for school.
I said that I remembered us being there last year on that day and the excitement of the children.....then I realized it was two years ago....how time flies.
I love you darling..TT Helen
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