Jackie and Rebekka's visit and Great North Run

Hello darling


I have missed you and felt so sad this last few days.....Andrew and Lucy ran the Great North run for you for Marie Curie perhaps as a way of grieving for you....they were fantastic.....trained meticulously - were completely committed to the training the run and the cause...and you I think.

They have raided £2,050 to date a fantastic sum and it all goes to Woolton...to your people the people that you have great regard for...us too.

I  found it  a bit overwhelming on the day- because they were wonderful all the folk who ran were running for great causes and in memory of loved ones....and I missed you.....and wanted you to see what they were doing to tell you about it.....and no matter how many folk run and jog and cycle....and no matter how much money is raised......you won't come home....you have gone....gone from all of us who loved you..gone from my life forever....and that is sad.

I had to ring the Everyman this morning to ask them to stop sending you letters....I broke down I hate those phone calls.

Your name is still on our bank accounts...I still get your bank cards.....I just cannot stop that yet...I must or Andrew will have trouble when I die....he will need to produce both of our death certificates....not fair on him.

I felt sad as Jackie is leaving for Dubai soon and this was the last weekend that I will see her for a while....I will miss her, she and Sandra have been so so supportive since you got ill....always coming to visit or arranging a weekend away..and weekends in Scotland....oh dear ,you are gone, my folks are gone, Anita is no longer well enough to see folk...for now, Jackie is going to Dubai , Sandra is moving, Philip is in Beijing......too many changes...this is when you find out how much courage you have and how strong you are....it does take courage to keep going to put one foot in front of the other....some days are very hard...Sunday was...today it is back to boiler problems....every day things..

wish you were here.....miss you.....love you always.....Helen   T T xx