Jury Duty

I got a letter ,or you did, from Liverpool courts....your name came up for Jury duty....I had to ring this morning to tell them that your died last year...it was so hard...I hate making those calls..I was going to leave it to Andrew..but he is in France and I thought the sooner the better...so I took courage in both hands and called.

I have had trouble with the central hearing boiler...had Richie out last week twice...we need a new part..they called this morning it will be £205 so I agreed to have it....I was considering getting a new boiler...but this should keep it going for a while...and I have just ordered a new couch from Utility....and bought a new table chairs and a desk....the couch will take a few months to get there...the table chairs and desk came this morning...they are in the cellar....I have asked Phil to take away the fire place and tidy up the wall...so until that is done..not point in putting new things in.

I am aiming for Christmas...but would really like it all done for Halloween..

I miss you darling.....just miss you and want you to be here to talk about all these mundane things with..the way couples do.

I am going to Castalla on Wednesday...Johnny and Penny will come on 25th I am sad about this trip and yet a bit looking forward to it too....to see Castlenel..and be there with the children.

Thursday 24t is the one year anniversary of you going into Marie Curie for the last time....it really hurts remember that..I can't look at last years diary with put great sorrow.

Maz and Manuella took me to Ikea yesterday.they had the meatballs in memory of you..sweet girls.

I had coffee with Rachel in Frangipani the other day....also with Jenny Fraiclough....at Fact.....Liz and Phil came in for a coffee....and Phil gave me a quote for taking the fireplace away...

I feel quite low and emotional this month....miss you darling.....I wonder if I will every be Ok really OK...you were are the love of my life...how do you recover from that..

Lots to look forward to... I am sure I will rally...just miss being one persons special person....no other relation ship is like that....you are not thee special one ,to anyone else, no matter how much they love you...and I miss blethering about everyday things.


We are into Autumn now....although the sun has just come out.....the leaves are changing colour...you would love it...I do but it is tinged with sadness.


Andrew and Lucy are with Phil on the boat......you loved being in France and on the boat...more than I did I think.

I hope it goes well for them..especially Andrew.....he is such a good person...likes to be with family....I hope Phil is in good form....I don't expect he will change..but he can be OK if he is relaxed enough..charming even,


I miss everybody,,,,,you most of all...dad.......Anita....she is very quiet and withdrawn now...I feel a but unnerved with the changes in the family..Jackie off to Dubai Sandra to Balloch...Philip in Beijing..I so miss him....it is all change.

I love you I miss you. feel sad.....TT

All shall be well
and all shall be well
and all manner of things shall be well.........and so it is....X