Turned a corner

Hello darling John


after the sheer desperation I felt over Christmas and your 1st anniversary and three weeks of a bad cough, I feel a lot better.
I think I have turned a corner .I think of you and I feel a warm glow I smile when I look at your picture. Instead if the gut wrenching pain I have been feeling ,the gaping hole in my middle seems to be being coloured in by bright colours which are you in many guises.

We had a wonderful life together a lot of hard times and a lot of spectacular times, I cherish all the memories

Since you went into hospital on September 24th 2014 I have lived alone, and I like it,I like making my own decisions, I like not having to consult, to choose what I want where to go, how I live, what I eat ,which cafe, which movie, which play, which concert.

It is not a comparison, I have loved and cherished all stages of my life; this is the one I am living now and it is good. I have less money that I ever had, but feel in control and better off.


I love you and I always will.....Helen TT