Shrove Tuesday

Hello John

today people all over \Britain will be having pancakes- we had ours on Saturday-so I don't feel like having them again.


Now we move into Lent- as you know I am not religious and don't go to church- or very occasionally I go to the cathedral if it is a particularly nice service.

I like the rhythm of church life though--as like the rhythm of the days weeks and year in Castalla-all connected with the church of course.

After the excesses of Christmas -Lent feels like a nice balance- a time to go inward- eat less drink less spend less what ever folk decide to do-reflect on the now- the past- the future- loss- despair-hope- whatever the topic- I am going to run a few workshops on Monday evenings for my Artist's Way group - I feel up to it- they all know what has been happening in my life- and I feel comfortable with them.


I am still quite fragile to-day a bit weepy. I am meeting Sue for Lunch at Leaf I will enjoy that.

Then I am taking Lucy birthday bag back to the Tate- if she manages to get it to me today- it still has the security tag on it- can't imagine how I got it out of the Tate shop last week.


I think during Lent I will listen to much less Radio 4- as I am quite addicted to it- I really want to stop listening to the morning news- I always say I don't watch the news because it is too upsetting- but I find listening is just as upsetting now  and gives the wrong impression of folk in this world-most of us are simply getting through the days weeks and months doing our best to love each other be kind- give a smile where we can- and find the daily round tough enough- so many folk are trying to make ends meet- going to work- childcare- caring for the elders in the community- along with cooking cleaning all the regular home-care things.


I will keep close you you my dear love- I wonder where you are John? have you really gone for good-is your spirit out in the universe somewhere?

More questions than answers.

Andrew and Lucy are going to Venice on Thursday- it reminds me of our wonderful romantic honeymoon there- we had such a wonderful time-in Venice and many other places- we were lucky John lucky to find each other and to have such a long and happy relationship - I miss you.

Helen TT xx