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Hello John
I took the sweet peas framed picture to Dr Hussein- it was a truly meaningful experience for him and for me.
He met me right away - I went in at the beginning of the clinic so the place was empty something I have never seen in that place- he took me to his little room and there was a nurse in with him-who I was introduced to.
I said I wanted him to open the gift then I would tell him why I was there.- I included in the package- a card from the family giving him our thanks for his care- a copy of the order of service from your funeral- and your short story Salthouse Quay.
When he opened the package he was so touched- he said that you had told him a picture was coming to him and that you had discussed the colour of the frame.
I told him about your time- our time in Marie Curie and that being with you when you died was such a precious time for me and I hope you.
He said how much you had touched him and the staff there- that you put up a great fight for life- and you also had the grace to know when it was time to let go- saying everything has to come to an end.
You moved so many people my love. He said that you talked well of me and the children- he knew you were loved and that you loved us.
He said I can go back and so can the children to chat with him if we want to.
He was immensely grateful to me for taking the time out from my grieving ,as he put it, to come to say thank you to him- he said this gesture- meant so much to him and his staff ,that it gave them encouragement to do the wonderful work that they do,
I am sure you can imagine how amazing the meeting was because you had great regard for this man.
I am suffering quiet a lot right now-I feel so sad and lonely for you-yet I am surrounded by loving family and friends.
Andrew and Lucy went off to Venice and their pictures on facebook broke me up- it took me back to our wonderful magical honeymoon there all those years ago.
They had pictures taken in the same places we did- and sent me a post card of their pictures and ours- 28 years later...so touching.
Patsy and Kev took me to Ness Gardens on Friday the day after the hospital visit- I told them about the visit and they were so touched too- we al cried in the cafe...but it was ok..we were touched by the best of humanity.
Saturday I had a wonderful day with Matthew and Marie- we had a very long lunch in Leaf with lots of chat about family holidays- then we moved from Leaf to a new cafe on Hardman street for coffee and cakes---we did not stop talking- it was great- we shared three cakes- mine was courgette and lime cake- amazing.
They went off to check into the Marriot and I walk back home- laid the table and got changed lit some candles- then they arrived in a cab- we had lots of wine and food and chat this time we talked about you- the funeral- your death- and I cried a lot the- they were both very relaxed with my tears and they were touched too.
Sunday I met them in town for breakfast- then off they went- I was so sad when they left- but happy about the visit- every ending is sorrowful for me at the moment....I had a long hot bath and a siesta- then watched Men who stare at Goats-- at first I did not get it then I started to enjoy it a lot- very funny. Love George Cloony and Ewan Mc Gregor together.
Monday you would have loved it- as it was the anniversary of our meeting 23rd February- I went to London and met Ellie for lunch- at the OXO tower- we had a grand time- a wonderful location- over looking the Thames- St Pauls- such a famous skyline- the restaurant was fabulous- amazing staff who were sensitive about mine and Ellie's tears- the best food- and wonderful company.
Ellie and I think we will do this once a quarter- and sometimes invite the rest of the woman in our lives- Penny Lara Lucy and in time- Kate and Martha too..
I feel content that I will continue to be in you childrens' lives- it gives me heart.
I had coffee with Sarah on Tuesday--more tears where do they all come form- it is a sign of how deep my love for you was- our love for each other.
Andrew came in to help me with some forms-- he was great too- I cried and sobbed- just not been very good at keeping control lately- but he was very understanding- and shared his feeling too-which is a blessing- we are both very aware of all the changes Philip off to China next- wonderful and a bit frightening too.I could do with life staying the same for a while-- but that is not going to happen..and so life goes- Anita came in yesterday - she is such a great friend and support to me- Susan too she sent some lovely gifts this week- Kerry came in with a pizza and some salad last night and we had a good catch up--she said lovely things about you and about us- she said she was so happy that she had witnessed our love.....
Today Rachel and Adam are taking me to Dobbies for afternoon tea---using the vouchers they gave us before they left Ullet Road- hoping we would all go together when you came out of hospital- but you never did my dear sweet John-- so today we brave the road to Dobbies without you--yesterday I had a massage with Beth- and she did some Reiki on me. During that time I sensed that I heard you saying "I am here" the John that you met- the John you can lean on" that was comforting- I have not seen that John for so long- I have been the one to take care- and be lent on-a great privilege-and it was wonderful to be cared for too.
Where ever you are my husband lover best friend---I miss you I love you-- TT.
I took the sweet peas framed picture to Dr Hussein- it was a truly meaningful experience for him and for me.
He met me right away - I went in at the beginning of the clinic so the place was empty something I have never seen in that place- he took me to his little room and there was a nurse in with him-who I was introduced to.
I said I wanted him to open the gift then I would tell him why I was there.- I included in the package- a card from the family giving him our thanks for his care- a copy of the order of service from your funeral- and your short story Salthouse Quay.
When he opened the package he was so touched- he said that you had told him a picture was coming to him and that you had discussed the colour of the frame.
I told him about your time- our time in Marie Curie and that being with you when you died was such a precious time for me and I hope you.
He said how much you had touched him and the staff there- that you put up a great fight for life- and you also had the grace to know when it was time to let go- saying everything has to come to an end.
You moved so many people my love. He said that you talked well of me and the children- he knew you were loved and that you loved us.
He said I can go back and so can the children to chat with him if we want to.
He was immensely grateful to me for taking the time out from my grieving ,as he put it, to come to say thank you to him- he said this gesture- meant so much to him and his staff ,that it gave them encouragement to do the wonderful work that they do,
I am sure you can imagine how amazing the meeting was because you had great regard for this man.
I am suffering quiet a lot right now-I feel so sad and lonely for you-yet I am surrounded by loving family and friends.
Andrew and Lucy went off to Venice and their pictures on facebook broke me up- it took me back to our wonderful magical honeymoon there all those years ago.
They had pictures taken in the same places we did- and sent me a post card of their pictures and ours- 28 years later...so touching.
Patsy and Kev took me to Ness Gardens on Friday the day after the hospital visit- I told them about the visit and they were so touched too- we al cried in the cafe...but it was ok..we were touched by the best of humanity.
Saturday I had a wonderful day with Matthew and Marie- we had a very long lunch in Leaf with lots of chat about family holidays- then we moved from Leaf to a new cafe on Hardman street for coffee and cakes---we did not stop talking- it was great- we shared three cakes- mine was courgette and lime cake- amazing.
They went off to check into the Marriot and I walk back home- laid the table and got changed lit some candles- then they arrived in a cab- we had lots of wine and food and chat this time we talked about you- the funeral- your death- and I cried a lot the- they were both very relaxed with my tears and they were touched too.
Sunday I met them in town for breakfast- then off they went- I was so sad when they left- but happy about the visit- every ending is sorrowful for me at the moment....I had a long hot bath and a siesta- then watched Men who stare at Goats-- at first I did not get it then I started to enjoy it a lot- very funny. Love George Cloony and Ewan Mc Gregor together.
Monday you would have loved it- as it was the anniversary of our meeting 23rd February- I went to London and met Ellie for lunch- at the OXO tower- we had a grand time- a wonderful location- over looking the Thames- St Pauls- such a famous skyline- the restaurant was fabulous- amazing staff who were sensitive about mine and Ellie's tears- the best food- and wonderful company.
Ellie and I think we will do this once a quarter- and sometimes invite the rest of the woman in our lives- Penny Lara Lucy and in time- Kate and Martha too..
I feel content that I will continue to be in you childrens' lives- it gives me heart.
I had coffee with Sarah on Tuesday--more tears where do they all come form- it is a sign of how deep my love for you was- our love for each other.
Andrew came in to help me with some forms-- he was great too- I cried and sobbed- just not been very good at keeping control lately- but he was very understanding- and shared his feeling too-which is a blessing- we are both very aware of all the changes Philip off to China next- wonderful and a bit frightening too.I could do with life staying the same for a while-- but that is not going to happen..and so life goes- Anita came in yesterday - she is such a great friend and support to me- Susan too she sent some lovely gifts this week- Kerry came in with a pizza and some salad last night and we had a good catch up--she said lovely things about you and about us- she said she was so happy that she had witnessed our love.....
Today Rachel and Adam are taking me to Dobbies for afternoon tea---using the vouchers they gave us before they left Ullet Road- hoping we would all go together when you came out of hospital- but you never did my dear sweet John-- so today we brave the road to Dobbies without you--yesterday I had a massage with Beth- and she did some Reiki on me. During that time I sensed that I heard you saying "I am here" the John that you met- the John you can lean on" that was comforting- I have not seen that John for so long- I have been the one to take care- and be lent on-a great privilege-and it was wonderful to be cared for too.
Where ever you are my husband lover best friend---I miss you I love you-- TT.
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