Kind Taxi driver and weekend with my sisters.

Hi John

I am home now after a lovely weekend in Glasgow and Kilmarnock.

The taxi driver who took me to Lime Street said " it is not often that I see you without "him" "

I had to tell him that you died in December-- I was of course upset-- he was lovely- remembers taking us to Fact and Leaf and taking you to Daffodil Club at Marie Curie..he told me his girlfriends nan is there now--we talked about how good they are....when we got out at Lime Street...he gave me a hug and told me to donate the fare to Marie Curie.I was so touched by him and his generosity.

Sandra and I went to Lamb hill on Friday morning- and took flowers to mum's grave- at least the place where mums ashes are interred and a few of dad's ashes are scattered- it was a lovely moment-we took out the Christmas flowers out-and put 18 yellow tulips in - the sun was shinning and the birds were singing- and we had a few moments silence - thinking about the two of them.

Sandra and I then went to town .I bought some tea towels and an over glove from Frazier's no less ,for Scott and Fallon as a wee house warming gift..we then had lunch at the Central Hotel...nothing but the best..it was really nice.

Jackie picked us up at the station and we all had a group hug...Sam Louise and Lachlan came round for a few hours -it was great to see wee Lachlan Matthew he is a total star- very contented and a great wee giggler.

We went to Troon on Saturday to look at houses for Sandra and Harry- we saw some lovely houses- but not perfect- so who knows where they will end up.

Troon was freezing- and a bit run down in parts- up and coming in other parts. I am sure you would have had stories to tell us on the Troon golf course and holidays with you family.

I had a good few tears but they family were all great no embarrassment- just kindness and understanding.

Rebekka spent time with us and she was a wee star--- Sandra bought an selfie stick ( which Sandra calls a (onsie) very funny-- we really did have a good laugh with that thing...Geoff finishes work in April due to redundancy - so far no job- lots of interviews but no job yet- quite worrying for them.

I met Andrew at Lime street on my way home. It was lovely- he bought me lovely flowers- white and green, simple and beautiful  two lovely white rose buds in there.We then had coffee and chocolate and a good catch up.

Coming home was a bit hard- I missed you when I came in- I saw your pictures and your writings and it was hard- but ok too I had a long chat with Philip -then a hot bath and an episode of House of Cards...scary stuff.


I ran my course on Monday evening after a session with my counsellor----I cried a lot with her-- but was very relaxed with my group--so that made me feel good- to be in touch with my power- rather than my fragile self..

I miss you John- I have been looking at more of your papers- I found a Christmas card that you gave me two Christmases  ago in a book I was looking through for work-- a picture of snowdrops and a sweet message--those are the things that I cannot prepare myself for-- something out of the blue- still I am glad I have it of course...


I love you dear beloved John-- I hope you are flying free in the universe---I would love to think I will catch up with you in time--but it is not vey likely-- yet who knows--- none of us know--


I love you John.TT xx