Sister's weekend coming up.

HI John

I feel a bit calmer to-day I really have been down a very big hole...thank goodness for time passing.


I had a lovely long chat with Penny and we shared our sorrow and had a few laughs too.

I am looking forward to seeing her and Johnny on April 11 they are coming to take some your papers and clothes which is a good thing- I have kept a few things which have meaning for me- I hardly need reminders of you my love- for the children this is their heritage and your grand-children's heritage too. John seems to want to keep all your clothes....maybe in time he will let them go.

We will all go out to lunch together that day..and have a catch up- I am looking forward to it as it makes me feel close to you being with them

That is the weekend that Philip is coming over- he will have given up his flat by then and will stay here for a few days before he flies off to Castalla where he will stay with his dad for a week- then he goes to Barcelona to fly off to China. I am happy for him and sad for me.Another big change to adjust too.


I am heading to Glasgow today for a weekend with Sandra and Jackie. I will stay with Sandra tonight- and tomorrow we head to Kilmarnock for two days with Jackie...hope to see Lachlan while we are there-- he is one now.


I hope to stay relatively calm while I am there--all the crying and sorrow is so tiring-- I am already tired for the last week mourning.

Although- I want to mourn for you my love - the final task that I can do for you-love of my life.


I have been looking through your papers again for a further reduction before Penny and Johnny come for them-- I have found some lovely things that you said about me in the passing- it is very comforting.

I bought myself some new clothes yesterday- not from a vintage shop but from Next- new jeans and two new tops-- it was my reward for having got through the last few weeks of heartache.

I will wear them all through my Scottish trip.


I love you John and I always will. Helen  TT  X